I thought my life was quite changed.

But, it is not. It is just dream.

I was so tiring, but I could not fell sleep easily. And then I woke up around 5:40am and tried to sleep but something was so much bothering me.


I thought I was special to someone but, I figured out that I was not.
I am just nobody who always staying easy access place for her for her convenience.

How could I believe that someone said that love me, but me was not important than her friends. If it is her bestfriends, maybe I can little bit understand. But, it was just friends. So it is special friends thing what she wanted to our relationship before when she said that she loves me.

I almost quit smoking around half year, but I started again. Of course, it was me did it again.
I tried to quit smoking again, but I could not because everytime something was so much bothering me so I could not help it.
It is the time, isn't it? It is the time I should let her go.

From
^_~ Ara